Magnificent

I love Diet Coke
I love it so much its stupid
Im actually having dreams about it
maybe im losing my mind
what do i mean maybe?
of course i am

so i hit 147.8 on thursday
im back at 148.2 now though
still the lowest ive ever been!
this is good
it is good right?

i just found out Lea Michelle is 98lbs
5ft 2' and 98lbs
110lbs wont be low enough for me
maybe even 100lbs wont be low enough
what if i cant stop Angels?

Im itching to get back to uni
i need my old gym back
its like being away from home
even though i am home

and i miss the freedom
freedom to starve.

Im obsessed with blondes at the moment
i'm thinking about going blonde myself
not skinny enough yet by far
its one of my rewards for one of my goal weights
im temped to do it this Friday though
ready for when i get back to Uni
what do you think?
Should i go for it and think of another reward for later?

Im sorry ive been away for so long Angels
Ill post alot more when i get back to Uni i swear
its hard to find any privacy in this house
or any time to actually put my thoughts into words

Welcome new follower.
Even though i disappear every now and again
i dont know what i would do if i didnt know you Angels were here
Thank you for listening to me
Ive started a journal as well
Its helping so much Angels
to look back everyday and know what i ate and how i felt
it helps me know that i never want to feel the bad bits again.

Love you Angels
and Thank You
xoxo