FUCK
not massive but not good
about 900cals to begin with
then i had Pasta. PASTA?!
maybe 1500cals total in the end
so im starting a liquid fast
aiming for 65 hours
that should take me right up to 'Sin'day Lunch
walked this morning, alot
about and hour and a half
500cals
was sick right after my lunch break
all it was was Diet Coke and Coffee
kinda a hideous black colour
T.M.I...sorry!
i don't know why it happened really
i don't honestly care either
coz this means i have a decent excuse
not to eat for the rest of the day
or tomorrow
for as long as necessary really :)
Tattoo Tomorrow
im so nervous
but so excited!
ill post a pick when its done, its only little
figured id start with something simple lol
told my sister i was getting it tomorrow
(my parents dont actually no yet lol)
i think she was more shocked that im doing it
we really dont get on.
the only think we have in common is our DNA
all the similarities stop there :)
i told her what it was, you know what she said?
'why would you get that, bit pointless aint it?'
OMG FUCK OFF
scuse my language
shes a fucking martyr all the time!
if its not what she likes then its stupid
if its not done her way then its wrong
the second you start to criticise shes stroppy
shes 21 and engaged and acts like a child!
I try so hard to get on with her
find things to talk about
ask about her life though i really dont care
and all i get is 'your wrong, your wrong, your wrong'
its like if she cant be happy then why should you?
cry me a fucking river BITCH!
okay im done :)
i showed some epic will power at work today too
they had cake, alot of cake
i just kept repeating in my head
'you wont remember what it tasted like tomorrow'
much love angels
xoxo
2 comments:
Good work on the willpower at work. I have to deal with it nonstop because I work in a food place. :/ It sucks, but I've managed to not give in so far. Let's hope I can keep this up *fingers crossed* Love your thinspo pics, btw. I'm interested to see what your tattoo looks like. I'm sorry you and your sister don't get along very well. Me and mine disagree on a lot also. That seems to be the way it is with siblings, except for those few fortunate people. I've never had the "best friend" relationship with my sister or brother.
good luck on the 65 hour liquid fast! It will be challenging but the results should totally make it worth the effort! <3 xx I also love your thinspo, it's really beautiful. hope the tattoo turns out beautifully, and good job on resisting the cake. that is such a good mantra to have, i think I'll start using it, cos it's true, the next day you don't remember the taste of the food, just the guilt
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