SNAP

IVE GOT A RUBBER BAND ON MY WRIST
THE SKIN BENEATH IT STINGS
THROBS AND BURNS
SERVES YOU RIGHT.

IM SORRY IVE BEEN AWAY
BIRTHDAY WEEK THIS WEEK
BEEN BUSY BUSY BUSY
TOO MUCH FUN
TOO MUCH LAUGHTER
TOO MUCH FOOD = TOO MUCH GUILT
IVE GAINED.
I CAN FEEL IT I JUST DONT WANT TO SEE IT
NOT TODAY

TODAY IS MY PARTY
MY 20TH BIRTHDAY PARTY
I FEEL LIKE A CHILD SAYING THOSE WORDS
I CANT BE 20, NOT NOW, NOT YET
IM NOT READY FOR IT
I HAVE PLANS, LOTS OF THEM
WHERE ARE THEY NOW?
CAN THEY SEE THROUGH THE PANIC
EVERYONE WILL BE IN THE POOL
EVERYONE WILL BE IN THE HOT TUB
NOT ME, NOT THIS YEAR
MAYBE NEXT YEAR
BUT MAYBE NOT EVER

WE TALK ABOUT EVER LIKE ITS A DESTINATION
OR A MOMENT IN TIME WE EXPECT TO MAKE IT TO
BUT THE TRUTH IS NONE OF US EVER MAKE IT THERE
SO I GUESS IGNORANCE REALLY IS BLISS.

MUCH LOVE.
XOXO