The plan is in action Angels
Weight: 155.6lbs
Intake so far:
1 SugarFree RedBull - 10
Just saw a pic of myself on FB
I cannot believe i let it slip now
If i had just kept going i could have been there by now
I haven't lost as much as i thought
I still look just as hideous.
can only imagine how disgusting i looked before.
I need to be 114. A is 114lbs
I know i shouldn't aspire to be someone else
Im not aspiring to be her
Im aspiring to be a better me.
Broke it off with T last night
He said he still wants to be friends
Thats fine. Im okay with that.
I just need to stay unattached
for now
To remind me in my weak moments
why im doing this to myself
It contains everything
Everything ive done
Everything i want to do
Everything i could be
If could just be strong enough
All the things i want in life
all the things i can have at 100lbs
If i can stay under 50 cals until the gym
I can have an apple when i get back
either that or ill just bank the calories
haven't really decided yet.
Please dont worry about me Angels
I'll be alright
Its just nice to know that your all out there
praying for me. With me :)
Unbeautiful
Thank you sweetie.
Im always careful :)
Much love xxx
CrashxDBurn
Yeah it is really low to begin with
i just need a kick start
It'll become a little less drastic soon
If it gets to the point of passing out i'll eat something
Promise.
Much love xxx
Leto
Im going to try and control my binge modes
Try and tackle it before it gets to that point.
If i feel that weakness im going to have something
Soup or water melon or something just to stop it
and then im going to Stop, i wont let myself binge
no matter what it takes.
Ill lock myself away if it comes to that. lol
Your welcome sweetie, glad i could help
its always a risk when you have to make that choice tbh
I told T yesterday that we had to stop this now
He took it well, we're still friends
He just sed he didnt want me to disappear from his life totally
which is fine because i need all the friends i can get atm :)
Maybe he'll take it better than you think
i doubt you'll lose him babe
Just need to ask him how he really feels about it
after all, who doesnt love drug fuelled dance parties :)
Much love xxx
Bella
Thank you sweetie :)
I always find a plan helps
I plan i can stick too
If i have a plan i know when im going wrong
and i know where im going wrong.
you'll know soon.
I didnt know either love.
Its just a choice i was forced to make
thank you for your words of wisdom
much love xxx
Much love
Speak Soon
xoxo
2 comments:
Sounds like you have it figured out pretty well, good luck :) also be sure you get a bit of protein here and there you wouldn't want to start losing your hair like many bloggers I know.
You're right, I know I'll have to have the talk soon.. Haha I just don't want to until I really have to jic it does cause a rift seeing as we never really have ever hung out as platonic friends.. I'm glad it seems like it'll work out with you and T tho, gives me hope lol.
It's only natural to compare ourselves to others.
Make sure to keep hydrated and take vitamins when you're working out on so few calories! <3
Hope your week is going well. xoxo
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