misunderstood

cheated last night. alot

even had crisps

WTF

im fasting today

big time

nothing all day ive sworn

Coffee. RedBull. Ice Pops.

My new lifestyle

T wanted to see me last night

                                             i didnt go, i couldnt.

He said he'd never get sick of me

                                                 it made me smile

i really missed R yesterday

I didnt want to text him

   i wanted to see him

     i needed his arms thats all

just him and a hug was all i wanted

i hate him for making my heart hurt

  but i will not see him

     i wont go over there

        i will not call him

i just need to leave it for a while

let my heart jump this hurdle alone

i need to be stronger than this

pull it together, make myself better

after all that's why he's not here.

momochi856

thank you my luvly.

I love her to bits and i know she wants to help

shes an Ex-Ana so shes been here

which of course makes her scared for me

i dont want her to be scared for me

i dont want her to be scared at all its not her fault

i hoped she would understand and just let it go for a while

unfortunately she cares about me

and her knowing just makes it worse

alot worse for me knowing she knows

but alot worse for her to because i wont let her help me

i dont want to feel like im letting her down

its upsetting her that i wont get help. I dont want it.

much love xxx

Thin_Envy

no worries :)

i made sure i copied all of the Blogs i was following across

before i deleted Just Jessica.

im 5ft 3 my love. a right shortass me lol

much love xxx

S.

exactly, i don't need any more paranoia

and its not even paranoia because i know she knows!

she even said that at one point she was going to tell my folks

its freaking me the fuck out :(

yeah ive got to a point now with 'Thin' where im just gunna leave it

at least for the moment. I dont think im ready to read her recovery bit yet.

Ive bought a couple more though. Books i mean :)

Feeling for Bones - Bethany Pierce

Unbearable Lightness - Portia de Rossi

and Wintergirls - Laurie Anderson

much love xxx

much love Angels

speak soon

xoxo