So this is my new blog.
like i was gunna go down without a fight!
A had been reading my other one.
I cant get mad at her for it because it was public
but then again i really really am
she searched it out (its not that easy to find)
and she'd been keeping tabs on me
using my thoughts to play her own mind games
spying on me through the ting hole i have in this wall ive built
If i'd wanted to talk to her about that stuff i would have
but i didnt, and i dont
and how dare she use it against me!
No one will know about this one
not if they're going to try and stop me.
Im isolating myself from them
From R, from A, from everyone who thinks they know me
Im just going to let it go
Do my own thing
Go to the gym
Work on my music
Throw myself in to my work
and not become a part of this malicious world
that insists on crush any hope or happiness from everyone i love
I can be in my own little world
this world that accepts me
that knows what i am and doesn't care
that knows all my secrets and wouldn't tell a soul
the world with the only souls in world who really know me
and who don't judge me
no matter what selfish, stupid or sick thoughts
i spew onto these pages
or what form these pixels take
you never run angels
you never leave this space empty.
I need you now more than ever
I need you to hear me angels
to know why im doing it
to learn the song in my heart
and sing it back when i forget the words
Alone is what i want
but when the silence seems to loud
i need to hear your whispers angels
telling me to find the light
and take hold of the loneliness that scares me
embrace it, love it
because in crowded rooms
you lose yourself to the liars and the cheats
but in d a r k n e s s
you only lose yourself to the safety of nothingness
Nothingness cannot hurt me.
1 comment:
You write beautifully.
Love
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